This Is The Story Of My Life...

...these are the lies I have created.

Yesterday I had my first english seminar with a new lecturer. We had to go to the library to work on a task she gave us. In the library a friend of mine insulted me in a funny way, when he walked away, I called him a 'fucking fuck'. Ok, right that moment when I spoke out these words the lecturer came in. I just thought 'Dammit', but she walked away and didn't say a word. After a couple of minutes she came straight to me and gave me a tonguelashing about the word 'fuck'. She said that in german-speaking countries this is understood to be a very funny word. But in the anglo-saxon countries this is a very humiliating and offending word. Blahblahblah. I was just like 'what the hell...?'. I felt like I was back in kindergarden. Of course I know it's wrong to yell 'you fucking fuck' after a person in a library. Anyway, when I finished the task she gave us, I stumbled over this particular friend again. He told me that he had also received a wiggin from the lecturer, because he called me a 'fucking punk' or something like that. I don't quite remember. After this little conversation I just said 'Let's get the hell out of here!'

In the afternoon I went to a mall and met a close friend of mine along with his girlfriend. When I was in the mall it seemed like I only saw couples holding hands and kissing, once more that day the sentence 'Let's get the hell out of here!' crossed my mind. When I arrived back home I just felt empty and I still do. Just empty. I want to meet new people, go shopping with them, doing funny stuff together, spending afternoons together, making fun of other people, sharing conspiracies.


30 Seconds To Mars - The Story

I've been thinking of everything
I used to want to be
I've been thinking of everything
Of me, of you and me

This is the story of my life
These are the lies I have created

I'm in the middle of nothing
And it's where I want to be
I'm at the bottom of everything
And I finally start to leave

This is the story of my life
These are the lies I have created
I created

And I swear to god
I've found myself
In the end

In the end

This is the story of my life
These are the lies I have created